Wash your hands clean of everything that may have hurt you before & open them up to new promises.

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Jeff Richardson What a pleasant record. A tremendous break from harsh vocals and a harsher world at large. What a find! Thank you Silent. Four really good songs. Nice. Favorite track: I was a sinking canoe & like the vessel I was someone patched me up, forced me to carry on & then discarded me when I was no longer useful..
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    Wash your hands clean of everything that..blah blah blah tapes out of 34. comes w/ the clown and jester sticker, 3 patches, 2 buttons (while i still have em), and..obvi the cassette itself.

    i only printed out 25 cassette stickers so like (somehow) 26 of them are the Michael Scott covers & the last 8 cs are of Kelly Kapoor getting her Valentine's Day card from her dentist, Crentist.

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about

this was supposed to be my third release. i wrote this entire thing with 7 songs in total the week after i dropped Late Night Phone Calls which is why it sounds like my shitty older stuff. fortunately, i reduced the album to four parts.

& many thanks to dianna for doing half of the vocals!

anywayssss,
take care!

credits

released August 4, 2017

dianna: vocals on tracks 1 & 3
me: everything else

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Track Name: I was a sinking canoe & like the vessel I was someone patched me up, forced me to carry on & then discarded me when I was no longer useful.
we grew apart
we threw a party
but i could not stay so I did not go
i felt all of our invited guests had liked your side of the room more than mine
i knew the ropes, i knew the dusty old tire from where it’s slumped
swinging back and forth just like my mental states from our time well into the end of our high school career

i fell apart
i know the truth was not exactly what i said
you probably figured that out at some point
that i was a way worse liar than i had been boyfriend
i was bored
i felt the routine had hit me too young
i didn’t even consider talking it through
i just felt like i had to leave

i lived with the regret of expecting you to change
Track Name: Can any of this really be that shifted? The strength of the signal is meaningless without equal reciprocity from the receptor.
i swallowed more than i could chew
or i chewed more than i could swallow
i can’t get it right

i saw you wear your heart as if it were your skin
that i cut as soon as i got close
you didn’t flinch
as you bled out on the floor
it seems as though you had expected me to sever every tie we ever made

i feel your love wrap around my bones as i grow weak
your arms are heavy, i’ve lost control
& am too afraid to speak

i feel your love budding in my lungs
it suffocates me
the lines feel blurred between
you give me air
&
you make it hard to breathe

-----interlude----

i feel locked outside my body
i feel free from the bounds of myself
(but it's not at all liberating)
Track Name: I can see the colors are a lot warmer now & resonate with me at much higher frequencies.
we used to be so cool together, now we barely talk.
i’m cool with that, too. i’m cool with how you and i have cleansed ourselves of everything we put ourselves through.
reflecting on the past but it feels like an old dream that i vaguely remember having.
time and time again, time slips me by.
and i fall right through
Track Name: With eyes wide open I jumped into that light & let the brightness consume me until I felt safe, whole and complete.
maybe in ten years i would’ve had the courage to ask you out
i had liked you more than i knew (at the time)
your entity was a body of light
that buried me in snow
frozen in cliches and memories


I’m killing time
i wanted you
i go out my way to please you
out of my way to see you

I’m making sure
i reconcile my ways
when i was depressed i’d leave you
when things were okay i’d need

(don't sue me fetty wap)